summer never ends here.

i don't need you. I will get through this.

Roses are red.
Violets are blue.
My heart is screaming.
I miss you.
 
I deserve better.
Thats what everyone is saying.
But I just can't believe it.
He was my first love. He still is my first love. 402 days with someone, and suddenly they're gone. It hurts so bad. Every inch of my body is screaming for the pain of missing to go away. But I just can't quit. I need more time.

i believed what they said, because they said so.
i was too fat.
legs too short, torso too long.
my flat butt, conversation starter.
my acne was worse than anybody elses.
they never mentioned my eyes.
because they never looked into them when they told me these things.
so I hold on to that. my eyes carry the weight of the insults while embracing compliments from those who matter.
before wondering whats wrong with you and your body,
ask yourself who is judging you.
and ask yourself if their opinion even matters.
because believe me,
you are beautiful.

my heart hurts.

as much as you've hurt me.
as much as you don't care.
as much as i do care.
i can't wish anything but the best for you.

you let that stereotype get to you. that thought that since you're a girl you constantly need a guy to talk to. you are never really happy unless there is a guy making you happy.
 
it's all a lie. you are independent. you are strong. but most importantly you are YOU. and no guy will change that. only you can make yourself truly happy. i regret the fact that it's taken me so long to learn this. but i also know that that boy that made me so happy for so long is something i can't regret. he was a retreat. he was a lesson. he was my best friend. and although he's gone, i know i can make it without him now. that's something i did not think was possible before. i can do it. you can too.

Will be the death of me. My broken heart is temporarily healed by carbs and chocolate. And I am perfectly okay with that.

For him.
 
I hate the way you stare
I hate how you don't care
I hate your fancy car, and your obnoxious key set too
I hate the way you act when you're around that stupid crew
I hate it when you say you love me, I know it's just a lie
I hate it how you make me laugh, right after you make me cry
I hate your voice, those big brown eyes, your short legs and your hair
I hate how you moved on so quick it really isn't fair
I hate how you left me here, you never even call
But mostly, I hate the fact that I can't hate you at all.